After much consideration, and Pam's consent I shall be purchasing a plot over by us where I can visit you whenever I want. Not really sure if that is what you wanted but please try to understand I need something visual to speak to. The house is up for sale now and the garden looks great thanks to Pam and Steve. When its sold it will be another sad day in my life. I wish you had spent all your money travelling and left us nothing. It means nothing to me, I would rather have you here. xx

Its been 3 months since you were taken from us, and its still really hard. Steve is on nights and Adam is out and I am just listening to some music from "Somewhere in Time" one of your favourite films. I still cry a lot and don't think it will ever sink in that I will never see or talk to you again!!! I miss you terribly. I would give anything to just have you answer the door at the house again. Unfortunately, Susan is being difficult but we can handle that. On the other hand Robert is being great, wish he was here I miss him too - and Jean. Finding it difficult to live life to the full and I am tired all the while. Hopefully that will ease as time passes. Wish I knew where you were? I like to think you have hooked up with Dad somewhere? You will always be in my thoughts and dreams. I have put a new photo on of Adam and his new girlfriend Lauren. Hes so in love, but I miss Nicola still. Lauren is really great tho too. Love you always and forever. All my love your baby daughter - Pat x x x

Its you wedding anniversary today, would have been 66 years. Its also sue and brian's.